"J'ai froid!"

This is what I posted on facebook for my friends to see. It's an easy copy/paste posting, ya? =)

Salut!
France is still a slight culture shock. It's werid not being able to talk to people. We spend a lot of time avoiding creepy dangerous people. lol. I mean, we're three college girls walking around at night in a big city. We watch our backs. During the day there isn't a ton of interaction either. I guess I'm used to the peace-lovin' hippies of Eugene. People will hard core walk into your shoulder and let out a slight "pardon." Let's just say one of the first words I learned here was "bouge." aka "move." lol

I've had tons of fun hanging out with Molly and Amanda! They've been super sweet and have taken a lot of time to explain things to me. patience.

We went to a holiday market yesterday. I had "vin chaud" which is a warm sweet red wine. It was really good. Molly bought warm chestnuts. These were serious treasures. It was SO cold. "J'ai froid!" aka "I'm cold!" Plus the metro was down so we walked almost the whole way there. Thank God for the tram. It was hilarious because at this holiday market they kept playing Disney songs in French over the loud speakers. lol. I sang to them. duh, I mean, c'mon... It's me. I do these things. I stuck to my charished English versions. =) I'm sure the French found me SUPER annoying. lol. whatev.

I'm here sitting on Molly's bed. She's cutting her friend Clair's hair. She's really nice too. She's from Corvallis and goes to UO. We're opposites! Speaking of her name though, she probably has it easy since Clair(e) is a French word. People can't say Molly, Amanda, or Hollie. Molly even spelled it out to the starbuck's guy and he didn't get it. lol. oh well.

Anyway, this is getting long. Molly has class 'til Thursday and then she's on break. We're gonna have a Christmas dinner with some other American friends and then we'll head to Paris for New Years. AHHH!!!

For now, we're relaxing at home. I'm totally chill with that though. I keep sleeping 'til like 1pm. Holly, I probably make you proud, eh?

Love you all!
hollie

"C'est pas normal!"

BONJOUR!
France is beautiful. The people here are interesting. haha. Some are very very nice and some are intense.
I was here for about 20 minutes before a lady got out of her car and started yelling at my friend in French. We were walking home from the bus stop. I had JUST arrived, and I was going to Molly's house for the first time. A lady drove really close to us, as most people do. She was driving like she was trying to hit us though. She sped up in front of us. And as most people do here Molly and Amanda flipped her off as she drove off. Then Molly says "Oh shit. She's backing up!" She floors is in reverse and tries to hit us again. Mols stuggled to get my huge bag out of the road. The lady stomps out of her car and get's in Amanda's face. "C'est pas normal! C'EST PAS NORMAL!" aka "That's not normal!" Though whole argument was in French and I had just arrived so I didn't catch much. Basically the girl freaked out 'cause we were in the road and they freaked 'cause she tried to hit us. Amanda was like "trying to hit us isn't normal!" The chick pushed Amanda and they started to fight! I was just standing there thinking ".... oh ... my.. gosh." She scratched Amanda's eye and ripped her contact. Poor thing. A taxi was honking behind her car so she had to leave. It was crazy. Mols and Amanda have loved telling the story though. They're like "why didn't we beat her up?!" They say if we see her again (which I doubt we will) that they wanna jump her. ha. But they said they don't think they'd recognize her. She was kinda average looking. Anyway. That's a story. lol
Many people can tell we're American before we say anything at all. They'll start talking to us in English. It's kinda crazy, especially since I WANT to speak French with them. I'll say "Oh, Bonjour!" and they'll say "hello!"
I'm in the city of Lyon, and it's very beautiful. It's the third largest city in France. It's known for their amazing lighting. Buildings have gorgeous lights shooting up the sides and statues are beautifully lit from the back. It tried crepes with Nutella. SO AMAZING. Better than I thought since I've had nutella at home. We went to a bakery and got quiche. Best quiche I've ever had.
I got here just fine. My 10 hour flight was killer. I met a really nice boy from Portland in Germany. We were on the same plane over. He was headed to Romania. He had the accent. He was super cute and we talked for awhile. He almost missed his flight but he kept walking with me. =) His name was Octavian and he was 21. I was able to find my way around the airports. Everybody working them spoke English, and I was able to use a little French to communicate with a French man to make sure I got on the correct bus. He was really nice! He was a little old man and he put my bag under the bus for me. =) God was totally looking out for me. I was afraid of language complications, but everytime I needed help there was a nice stranger there for me.
I slept the whole night last night! It was great.I couldn't believe it. I went to bed at 10:30pm and slept 'til noon. lol. I also took a tylenol pm though. That makes more sense, but they don't always work terribly well on me. I guess it did this time. Molly and Amanda and I had been going around Lyon all day, and with traveling and the time difference I was getting tired. Luckily we went to a brand new Starbucks. It's a new thing here, so it was very busy. Amanda is Molly housemate. She goes to UO too. They have three French housemates too. They're really nice, and when I don't understand they'll translate.
That's about all for now. It's getting late here. We're gonna head out and maybe grab some dinner. Amanda is nice enough to let me use her comp while she's in the shower. I'll have to add pics later! bye!

LA - Track 02

11-18-07

LA weekend is over. It was really nice. I NEVER realized just how anti-god Cece's family is.... I guess I need to pray bigger, huh?

I'm @ LAX sitting on the ground with my back against the wall. It's almost noon, and my flight leaves @ 1 for San Francisco.

CRAP. A girl just walked by wearing my shirt. I hope it looks better on me... lol. No joke. I'm such a sloppy/lazy dresser.

I miss my roomies. I miss Charis.
It's easy to live w/ Christians. Maybe too easy. Maybe this should be my last year... eh. who knows?

LOL. for some reason being @ this huge airport reminds me of Luke Barton and how I was lucky enough to sit next to a fun guy my age for an 8 hr. flight. Maybe I'll be so lucky this time.

The lady next to me is STILL eating McDonalds. lol. Probably better than my Starbucks. I got it w/ non-fat milk this time. haha. rediculous side-thought. "ADD-focus."

A billion people are boarding for Hong Kong now. Some seats are open but I think I'll stay on the ground. Does that make me more earthy?

Matthew's wedding was nice. simple. cute. That surprised me 'cause both fams are pretty well off.
No dancing. no alcohol. Quite religious. All 3 things individually can piss my bro's and cousins off. All together? Forget about it.

I said at mine it would be religious but it would be 80% dancing and they could drink. They were ok w/ that.

The last time I saw everybody was @ Uncle Michael's wedding. So the question came up "who's getting married next so we can see each other again?" Uncle Michael said "Garrett, unless you get pregnant." lol

My flight is delayed. I hope I don't miss my next flight...

EUREKA! I sat in a new heat here @ LAX and I believe the couple next to me is British! My guess is N. England. They talk like Wallace and Gromet.

The background music @ the airport (when people aren't announcing on the intercom) played "Because" by the beattles w/ an Orchestra. no voices.

people travel in couples. then there's me. God is good to me. *trying to look up, not come off sarcastic*
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update.

My flight was delayed nearly 3 hrs. Needless to say I missed my 3pm flight out of San Fran. I caught a 7pm flight to Portland. It's 8:46pm now and I'm waiting for Holly to get me.

Funny Stuff ->

a guy @ LAX caught my attention for wearing a ton of UO stuff. I caught up w/ him and his friend in San Fran. We made really small talk. Before we boarded our flight he came up to me.

"What year are you?"
"Me? -Junior"
"What's your name?"
"-Hollie."
"Hollie...?"
"-Roberts... Do we know each other."
"We're probably facebook friends."
"Oh, we ARE?' *my thought: ha yeah right.* "Do you play on a team?"
"yeah."
"what one?"
"football."
"cool."
Ken Greaves."
"... cool. wait. what?"
"I'M Ken greaves."
"...oh...cool..."

POMPOUS.

his friend played too, but he wasn't a snob.

I told him I went to OSU. lol
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I sat next to this extreme guy on the plain. Previously I thought he looked like a tortured-hippie-soul straight out of Vietnam.
eveything he did was extreme. he didn't slightly slide into my bubble. He was all up in it. He copied my manorisms as we talked.
I kinda like his extreme hippie self. I felt myself having a more extreme nature/manor as I talked w/ him.
He ordered 2 drinks. One of which was black coffee- extreme.
He didn't hide that he read GQ.
He read every page f/ top to bottom. He smelled every cologne sample. When he found he like 1 he shamelessly rubbed it all over himself. @ first he brought it up to himself then he finally just went head first into the magazine. Like a cat to catnip.

I tried so hard to hide my laughter. luckily he didn't see.
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Turns out that British couple was Scottish. Very nice. We talked.

Some highschool kids sat behind us and starting flashing pics. One was like English!
I couldn't help but keep staring back. He must have caught on 'cause the next time I looked back he flashed one of me! lol. "What the-?!"

I switched flights and sat waiting next to another British couple. English? old. Not talky.

I saw another British maroon passport in San Fran.

A girl who borrowed my phone just got off a flight f/ London.

I think th@ sums it up. Still waiting for Holly 9:09.

ttyl!
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Still waiting for Holls. 9:34pm.
She'll be here in a little under an hour. Papa just called.

It's nice to know I have so MANY GOOD FRIENDS. I called Holly, Jen, Candace, and my mom.
Holly, Jen, and Candace didn't hesitate to say they'd be there if people fell through. My mom... another story.

I don't know what's up with th@. I don't really care. W/ the way we ended things @ the airport... I was thrilled to have Holly pick me up. I called her first.

My French exam is tomorrow. I don't wanna study. It's true... You really will take as much time as you're given to finish something.

LA - Track 01

I wrote this entry on my way down to LA the other weekend.

11-16-07
I just want to paint right now. Something sloppy. Quick. Motion... Emotion. Remember in What Dreams May Come? "Can you see this Christy? How 'bout this?"



It's due to emotion. I'm @ the Eug airport. It's almost 5am. Mom dropped me off. We fought on the way here. The whole point was to get the other to apologize and get ourselves to believe it. MAN, I hate the way she fights. This is honest.

Matthew is getting married this weekend. Tomorrow actually.

I don't know what's going on with you-know-who. I think God presented the situation to bring me closer to Him. Ant it worked, didn't it? I'm praying and reading more. It's not how I ideally saw it ending, but closer to my God IS the best thing anyway.

Ian spoke @ OneVoice last night and faith and not being afraid to pray BIG because it's not too BIG for God. When you get to Heaven Gad may say we didn't have enough faith and He would have/could have done more if we just had more. But He's not going to say we had too much faith and that it was too much for Him.
Have big faith.
Pray BIG.

It's Friday. I'm missing school today. It'll be wk9 (Thanksgiving wk) on Mon. I don't feel like going home for Thanksgiving.... *honest again*

I suck @ being social. I left OneVoice quicker than I planned last night because I didn't know how to talk to people. I need to pray about th@. That's not an attribute of God. He doesn't want me scared or sad.

I'm piercing my nose on Monday. Emily Breen and Lauren and I are going. They're gauging their ears. Jessica may pierce her brow. =) I ♥ those girls.

I've thought about taking fall term off next year to work in England w/ Holly. Just a thought. I NEED TO PRAY ABOUT IT. If any term it would be nice to miss fall. That would give me 6 months off for 1 term. Better than being a year behind. I could make up a term. I could stand th@.

I miss Molly. 25 days.

Little stressors here and there. That's why I wanna paint.

God's good though. He's bigger than any situation. My provider and helper when in need.

♥

Lord, let me survive this weekend.

♥ Hollie

5:15am 11-16-07

compulsive dreamer

I wanted to document my following thoughts in a blog. I wrote an email to molly first. then i realized i summed it up quite well. =) So i've copy/pasted the email and it is now my entire blog. It read as follows:


"I'm a compulsive buyer.. I'm a compulsive dreamer. ha.
i get these ideas and RUN with them and don't look back and then i get stuck and go "well crap. why didn't i see that coming. why did i start this again?"

i watched a documentary last night at a little theater in corvallis. it's called King Corn. It was really good.

it got me thinking about how i want to go visit other states ( like the guys in the movie did) and then it was like KA POW!!! "I WANT TO MAKE A DOCUMENTARY!"

i haven't worked up camera skills. or dorcumentary skills. but i kinda wanna try it.


i think i'm gonna try to go on a long road trip this summer and go see places... i don't know. not alone. lol. whoever wants to join can.


but the point. my thoughts went to

"I could try out my camera-ing skills in france. even if i use the camera for random moments... or it turns out to just be a stupid thing i never pull out. it would give me practice!"

then i looked up cameras this morning.


http://www.bestbuy.com/site/olspage.jsp?skuId=8472958&productCategoryId=abcat0403004&type=product&id=1185265539624


it's a good start. JUST over a hundred bucks.



am i getting ahead of myself.


feel free to grab my ankles and pull me back to the ground.



=) love you!"





King Corn. Go see it! *give trailer a few seconds to start*

I'm too old for that....

haha. Ok, so we girls have this little joke. When a girl has been nagging and brings up that she's been feeling weird lately you can throw out the sarcastic comment "Are you pregnant?" and then you kinda look at each other and go "PSH! LOL!" It's not a big deal. A lot of my friends are abstinent. Or if I'm with Holly one of us will probably throw back another sarcastic remark like "YES! It's Rufus Wainwright's love child." It's funny. It's rediculous. Neither of us are sexually active, and even if we were Rufus Wainwright's gay. I couldn't sleep with him if I tried! lol. oh man.....

The point... I'm too old for that joke now. I'm at the age where friends ARE getting pregnant. CRAP.

I opened today at work. I was with a co-worker and she's been bringing up that she's "hormonal" about 10 times a shift. She was ASKING for this joke... Maybe I'm just a sarcastic jerk. She didn't go in to work the other day because she was sick. I said it.... Why did I say it??..... "Ha. Are you pregnant?"

I'm such a jerk....

She looked startled. She didn't expect THAT question. She looked up with slightly teary eyes. I can't explain them. Her eyes. They were... Scared. Worried. Confronted. Tired. Teary. She looked like she was going to- for lack of a better word- Confess.

"...Yes."

WHAT DID I DO?!!!!


"Oh my gosh.. I'm SO sorry. Are you ok?"

She stood there. She was looking at me. No, looking through me. It was a blank stare. She was weary after saying one word.

I gave her a hug. I'm too old for that joke.


We talked for a long time. She opened up to me. She didn't mind. She was venting.

"He said he loves me. He sees himself with me. He sees us with kids. Just ..... Not right now."
"What is that supposed to mean?! You can't stop now."
"An abortion."
"... Oh."

Oh my gosh. I'm supposed to minister to this girl.

We talked on and off about it for the rest of my shift.

Thank God she doesn't want an abortion. But she doesn't want to lose her boyfriend either. Adoption, she said, was not an option either.
The scary thing is that she is still contemplating if staying with her boyfriend is worth this abortion.
She's dreamed of having a family all of her life.
He said that if she kept it he couldn't be there 100% for her. He's honest. An honest jerk.

I was just trying to encourage her at first I guess.
"You're going to be such a great mother." I wasn't just buttering her up. She really is. She's SO loving and giving. She's financially burdened, but she never saves for herself. She saves to bless her friends with stuff they've been needing.

She gave up drinking about six weeks ago as a form of empathy for her friend who's also pregnant. What a blessing she did. She's six weeks along and drinking during the first six weeks can do the most damage.

God just put it on my heart to tell her that He already loves that baby so much, and He already has plans for it.

She knows I'm a Christian, and I know that she isn't. Before I left I was able to tell her that. She smiled at me. I don't know if she took it in.

Honestly, I wanted to add in that she shouldn't give up the family she's already started (that she's always dreamed about) for a guy that is conditionally there for her. That's a little much though.

I don't really know what to think. It makes me so happy I'm abstinent. haha. I'll just keep praying for her.... Maybe we'll have a shift together soon.

"Oh my gosh. I'm too old for that joke! Girls my age REALLY are getting pregnant!"
"LOL. Yeah. We can't do that one anymore!"

WHAT THE CRAP?!!

Am i playing with my emotions here?? what's going on?! ARG!


I have a midterm tomorrow at noon and I haven't started studying for it yet. 10:17 pm right now. nice.

I stopped by OneVoice tonight. I had to make it after Divine was over for the night, but I got to see some peeps. I really wish I could go to a service. For now maybe it's best....

Divine's performing tomorrow. I'm beatboxing again! WOOT! love those girls!

The Halloween mugger was AMAZING!! We had some costume difficulties, so we showed up late. Amy was a Greek hottie. AJ was a medievil wench. lol. amazing. Lauren and I glowed - litterally. "I like our outfits Lauren. They're modest AND slimming." -me That make Lauren laugh =)

*this is us!!!*



When we walked into the dance I swear half of the people dancing STOPPED! lol. We looked at each other like "uhhh...." It was kinda awkward. People pointed with smiles though. Then about 5 Charis girls came up to us and were like "OMG!!! That's AMAZING!" I don't even remember what girls. It was all fast. lol. I remember Ali. Anyway, throughout the night people came up to us and were like "that is the most AMAZING costume I've EVER seen!" That was so cool. We went into the dancing circle and transferred the wave between our arms. People cheered for that a lot. =) It was neat. It was a bummer that we couldn't dance a ton (mobility was limitted) but it was worth it for the night. Shaina said she hadn't seen a reaction to a costume like that since boys showed up in the tetris costumes. Pretty hard core!

Why am I not studying YET?!
Why am I leading myself on?
...... Why am I not getting an answer still??
.... Where did my patience go?......

peace out for tonight. love, hollie

I'm off to study??
MUST succeed! MUST!!!

lots of LOVE
my fav quotes of the day:
"make love not war"
"don't be trashy. recycle"

Halloween

Halloween. It's upon us again.

Normally I'll say I wanna dress us and then I never do. Lauren's helped me this year. She's very inventive *if that's a word*. She recommended I be a lion. I can poof my hair into a mane and be a WILD .. THING!! Yes, as long as the hair was huge she was happy. lol. I thought it would be daring on my part, so I went with it.

... and there you go. LOL. fierce, I know. haha. SO much fun! I looked like I should be in the show CATS. yeah...

The dance was at the courthouse. It's a new co-ed christian co-opp. awesome! The people seem really chill and they're our neighbors. They're seriously across the street. lol

There's another Halloween dance this Wednesday. It's the Varsity mugger. AMAZING!
Lauren and I are going to wear all black and use glow sticks to create stick figure people images on us.


YAY!!! So excited! we bought materials today.

I met cool people at the dance last night (to go back to that subject) too. David (amy's friend). we danced a lot and had fun. John Mark, whom I've met many times, but as normall I had to reintroduce myself. lol. oh well. but yeah it was WAY fun!


**** Halloween's a weird subject for me. I don't know how I feel about it. I don't like how it's an excuse for people to dress slutty all over campus ( but they'll find an excuse for that no matter what- like THURSDAYS! "every Thursday we'll dress less and drink more!" awesome combo - I feel sorry for them... so lost =/....but that's another blog). It's also based off of some pretty evil stuff.
*** at the end of the day we try to use it for some good fun. =D Clean dances and dry parties!!

I'll have to update with pics from this Wednesday ;)

love, hollie

ps- Lauren said a REALLY cool girl came and looked at our room today! She liked her a lot. Maybe she'll move in next term. YAY!

ACROSS THE UNIVERSE!!!

Sooooooo....!!!!!
I saw Across the Universe last night with Lauren and AJ. It was our roomie night. We went to some places for Halloween costume stuff and out to dinner, but the main point of this post is the talk about the movie. What can I say?? I have no words....


IT WAS THAT GOOD!!!!
AMAZING!!
I've been singing the songs all day at work. I can't stop thinking about it!
If there wasn't a Halloween party tonight at Diakanos, I'd go see it again!!



WHAT A MIND TRIP!!
LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE!!
I WANT TO SEE IT MANY MANY MORE TIMES.
It's the next Moulin Rouge.
It's different at the same time though.



AMAZING!!

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

trying to look back in the past and forth to the future at the same time will only make me dizzy. I pick forth....

Back:
I MISS MOLLY GRAHAM!!!
She's in France


Forth:
I'M GOING TO SEE HER SOON!!

..

we're going to have a friends Christmas and New Years! How much fun?!!
i♥that girl


Forth:
Divine is performing for our first Friday performance of the year today with OutSpoken. They've done one already. I'm glad we're not behind.
OUR SET:
Across the Universe (solos: Heidi, Sefani, and Melissa)
Concrete Angel (solo: Stefani)
Kiss Me (solo: Jen)
All That She Wants (solo: Laura) (my beatboxing debut!!)

It should be tons of fun!
I have a lot of friends coming. Some from the dorms and some from Charis. YAY! I'm blessed. =D

Forth:
that's all FOR NOW! ***hollie***

"another rainy day"

I got taken in
We feasted on olives from the fridge
We stood the whole lonely day
We made love all afternoon
Til the stars went blue

You wrote a ballad
We dined on oysters and champagne
That's what it seemed like
We connect in so many ways
So easy, I must say

****
Why am I so shy around you?
Why am I so shy?
Why do I take care to astound you?
Why do I even try?
****

Another rainy day
We sat inside by the radiator watching old black and white films
Where everybody sang
You played in my solitude
Didn't get dressed 'til 2

The rain says all
I wrote this song on my guitar
But it didn't turn out right
So we just connected in other ways
So easy, I must say

****
Why am I so shy around you?
Why am I so shy?
Why do I take care to astound you?
Why do I even try?
****

****
Why am I so shy around...
Oh why am I so shy?
Why do I take care...
Why do I even try?
****

-Corinne Bailey Rae

*if you don't already own her CD, go get it!*

between being pensive and a procrastinator....

I've never thought I'd wanna go to China. I'd rather go to a lot of other places. One reason is that if I can stick to an English speaking country I will, and if I go somewhere else it'll be for art or something similar to that.. Then I saw these pictures:








.... I'd go to China.

































































I've been on the fence about something. This thing. This point of view. This distraction...... A distraction from everything I feel is productive. A distraction from what may be my "safest" path.....

But then I think......



Who needs safe??

I'll leave it a secret for now. I may leave it a secret. But if this secret presents itself... you'll all know.


I pray about it. I listen for it. I watch for it....

How come we all want it SO badly, then when I can get it...... I run away.


AMBIGUOUS

.... This is me not wanting to study for my French test tomorrow.

♥ hollie

*MY ART*

I took a drawing class last Spring term. It was kinda boring, but I can't deny we learned SOO much. Here's some stuff. Some's ok, some's better. At the end of the day I'm proud of it though!!!

The Recap I Owe to the World!.... I know you're all reading out there =)

Jen, oh my dear friend Jen. You read this everyday and yet I never keep up. WHY?! Why not keep up when I like this blog thing. OUTLET!!

So much has happened. A list for all of my deeply intrigued readers:
*Right now Lauren's straightening my hair

*We're listening to old school Mairah Carey (the only good stuff she's put out)

*We've had too much sugar

*Jen took me to see Brandi Carlile for my 21st B-day!! AMAZING!! (A Fine Frenzy was there again. WOOT!)




*Molly's in France now. =( I talked with her the other week. I miss her and hope she's happy!

*I visit Molly semi-soon. YES! 52 days!!!

*School has started again. Good and bad. no.... Good and annoying! I love Charis. My roomies rock my life! God is SOO good.


*My roomies, Jessica Udell, and I went to a corn maze in Jefferson last night! (others from charis, diakanos, and varsity went, but we four stuck together). The mazes weren't amazing, but we had a blast, ate elephant ears, and then went to Sharis to gorge ourselves with regretable food. "THROW UP!" lol

*I'm working at Quizno's again. It's still entertaining, so I can't complain. Besides, money's money, eh?


* Jenna just had her pumpkin carving party! SO FUN as usual! I carved Jay Leno and gave it to Mark. lol. It was worth a good laugh... Maybe a thousand. hmmmmmm



*Divine has started up again! We have a crew of 14 wonderful and amazing ladies. <3 I beatboxed on All That She Wants last Thursday! It was really fun. We were recording stuff to send to ICCAs and we decided to record that just for the heck of it. AMAZING! FUN!

*Jess, her mom, Chuck, Holly, and I are going to see the Trans-Siberian Orchestra in Portland on December 2nd, 2007! YES! Should be amazing. They're gonna be doing Christmans music! YES!!!


*I know there's so much more to add.....

*I'm already in the library too much.. Week 4. wonderful.... lol ;) *a pic of needed proof?*


-i study psych there a lot-



*My mom started dating this guy named Gary. He seems really cool. His two sons go to OSU. I met him today. We (my mom, him, and I) went to Starbucks downtown.
That's a recap. Not amazing, but who's HONESTLY reading this? Jen loves me and doesn't need to be deeply entertained. lol. jk. But now I don't feel terrbily guilty. ;)
Now I can keep up with random stuff and not feel like I should recap.

LOVE TO ALL OF MY FANS OUT THERE!!!! lol

Here's some more wonderful art that is inspiring!
*I need to take another art class* ***sigh***

ALL CHALK

Does this COUNT??

I'm craving a road trip..... I'm leaving in two hours to pick up my dad from PDX.... Does that COUNT?? .... Didn't think so....

Kinda crazy. I'm always like "get me on a plane to Europe!" Although I still want that I've realized that what I LOVED doing the most in England was MEETING PEOPLE! It's the BEST. The US is soo massive. I would love to see some other states. I don't know why, but Alaska is really intriguing. Weird. Not exactly easy to travel to. I go to LA a lot. Once or twice a year. My family and I always drive, so I'm used to lllloooooonnnnnnnnnnnggggggggg rides in the car. I think my longest was 18hrs to Vegas. Oye. Anyhoo.... I wanna travel more....



HOLLY AND I WENT TO THE RUFUS WAINWRIGHT CONCERT!!!!!!!! It was AMAZING!! I'm still thinking about it, and it was over a week ago. I love him. oh, i love him. If he wasn't gay... I'd jump 'im. lol. I mean, what? All in good fun of course. Seriously though, I think that he's a genius. I've been watching some of his interviews on utube... and by some... i guess i mean a lot. Anyway, he's SO witty. It's no wonder his lyrics are FANTASTIC. ideas just roll off his head (<--i don't think that's a real saying). In a nut shell, I want to buy all of his CDs, and I can't stop thinking about his music. If you want some- just ask. ;)



Speaking of which, there's so much hype about sharing music. I know it's against the law... annoying if you ask me. However I know where they're coming from. If you ask me though, I can't really think of anything I'd rather share with friends than music. It's not with rebellious intentions. There's just nothing more I'd really rather share. IT'S MUSIC!



Sean Lennon openned for Rufus (along with A Fine Frenzy) and he was like "Buy my music-or not- I don't give a f*ck. Just LISTEN to it." Amen to that.



I'm still babysitting my sibs and I love it!!



Molly's leaving for France soon, and I'm getting really bummed. I'm super excited for her, but I'm going to miss her SO much....

REMINISCING!

I was looking through junk in my room tonight. I'm SLOWLY cleaning it out with my mom's help. It's quite the job. I hate to admit I have some messy moments. oye.. ANYWAY... I found some random stuff from England. Simple little things that brought me right back! Like this receipt:

OH THE JOY OF POUNDS. I want to go back so badly.

Jen and I are dreaming about a trip this spring break. OH PLEASE LORD, LET IT HAPPEN! How fantastic!

Then there was this:


I bought it at an outdoor shopping area in Brighton. I didn't need it. I got two big packs for £2. I thought they were little gift bags for Christmas, but they're little gift cards to place on the gifts. I actually didn't give a crap about them. I bought them from a really hott guy. LOL. No joke.
The QE2 had just come in. He asked me if I had been aboard. I said no. He was good with kids. Yeah. It was basically love.

In a nutshell... GET ME BACK OVER THERE!
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Catch up

Hey Friends! Oye, so I haven't been as caught up. But it's ok because I'm writing this for my own personal blogging, ya know?
I got back the other day from LA. My grandpa turned 90 years old. GO PAPA! He's getting old, and sadly it's starting to show. He was in the the hospital on his bday. We have long life on his side of the fam. His great grandparents lived to 98 and 102. That's CRAZY TALK- I know. That must have been in the 1800s. madness. We are getting the idea that this is last bday. His spirits are a little low. His brain is doing great. It's just his ears and eyes are doing terribly. He can be in a room full of people and feel completely alone..... He's a wonderful man. I hope he's just happy.
It was great seeing the family. Everybody got along surprisingly well. My family loves eachother, but they don't always like each other. yeaaahh. one of those situations. They're crazy people, but I love them. They make me laugh. Garrett asked my Uncle for a restaurant suggestion, and he gave the longest and most rediculous directions to some place somewhere.. As we drove off Garrett was like "JEWS ARE SO CRAZY!" I laughed. We're aloud to say that, I suppose. I mean. We were laughing at ourlselves.

It's funny 'cause the relatives most of my family tends to stray from and warn me about always tend to be my favorites.

We went through family pics so Shiloh could have some kid pictures of himself. I found the ones above. They cracked me up. I think it's from 1988 or so. Me and the bros. =)

EUREKA!!!! I have a job! Well, it's not "real" job, but it's the best job I could ever think of for me right now. It's super easy and I'm good with it. I'm babysitting my little siblings Samuel (8) and Claire (10 [pictured after a makeover] ). It's great. I watch them 9am-5pm on weekdays. The pay's really good too. It's awesome 'cause I get to hang out at my house and play with my siblings. They love it when I help them beat video games, take them to movies, play board games, go to the park. It's awesome work and I couldn't need the cash more. $$ CHA CHING!! $$ =) I'm SOOOO HAPPY! Tomorrow we're going to Wildlife Safari. My dad's covering all the costs, and I still get payed the whole time. Holly's coming too! We're really excited.




This Tuesday I'm not working. Holly and I are going to Portland to the Rufus Wainwright show. YES!!

I'm working really hard to budget myself right now. REALLY HARD. I'm rewarding myself with a small bday gift though. On Sept 6th Jen and I are going to see Brandi Carlile at the WOW Hall. It should be SO fun. We're gonna go get cocktails I think too. She's one of my only "of age" friends. Arlie might come too! That'd be awesome. That weekend Noel said he'd take me out too. Fun times. =)

Right now I'm watching a show on the discovery channel. It's Shark Week. The show's on that ship that went down and hundreds of men were attacked by Sharks for 5 nights. 1,200 on board. Just over 300 survived. True story. ... yipes.

My mom's helping me clean my room out 'cause I'm messy and a baby.

I think that's everything. Good night all!! God Bless

what i like to call a "summer moment"....

I love summer. It's the season without stress.

The other week Molly and I were riding our bikes by the river. The sun was shining. At one point I turned to her and I was like "Do you realize that this right here right now is an afternoon we're gonna look back on and miss so much. We're riding our relaxing bikes, the sun is out, we have no homework or midterms to study for, we're listening to Regina Spektor, and we don't have a stress in the world." She was like "you're SO right." It was true.

On Saturday I drove up and visited Jen for the weekend in Hood River. It was so nice. The city is really cute and her family is so welcoming. =) One of those summer moments though was on Saturday night. We went to see a movie in the Park (picture included). The movie was Maverick with Mel Gibson and Jody Foster. We laid out our blankets on the grass on the hillside and reclined back on our pillows. The weather was perfect. The sun was just beyond the horizon and the temperature was perfect, neither cold nor hot. Yeah, I fell asleep, but that's not the point. That's expected with me. The moment is the point.

I wish there were more moments like that. I should make more happen. They don't have to just come along... I can plan for them. =)

My mom and I are driving to LA tomorrow. My grandpa is turning 90. I hope it turns out to be fun. I plan on relaxing with the fam and swimming in the pool a lot. That seems like a summer moment just waiting to happen.....

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